Confusion
in a state of confusion
you keep me forever
in my heart an illusion
of you is as strong as ever
feeling love, feeling hate
a desire to mate
is it bull? is fate?
how do we compensate?
for the lack of emotion
for the lack of devotion
will we ever find a compromise?
will i be able to realize,
that you may not be the one for me
that all you want is to be free
we seem so different
yet so alike
our unspoken agreement
and the spark that we strike
* * * I'm still amazed
* * * You made me hurt so bad,
* * *
i'm about to faint
* * * they said to reach the sky is easy
* * * You're dripping on me
* * * Oh love, at a wrong time, at a wrong place
* * * Truly, madly, deeply
A forbidden fruit in all ways.
At the intensity of pain,
And insane rules of this game.
The fireworks, the ups and downs,
The cries, the laughs and random frowns.
Unanswered questions and little lies,
Weird relationships, questionable ties.
I could have done whatever it takes,
But so many lifes are at stake.
So I'll keep pretending that I don't care
And cling to whatever we share.
Untitled
I still don't know what to do.
Everything funny and hollerious turned sad.
All of these months I lived only for you.
Now, there's pretending, lots of pain.
Make love to me, but love another
Thats insane!
It makes me shudder, my speech studders,
My words come out as white lies:
I'm just a friend, there's no emotions...
If she comes back, we'll rip all ties,
There are no other options.
I may not love,
But I want you, cause -you I cannot have.
A want, that makes me stupid, makes me slow,
This want and pain that need to meet their deaths.
Fume
i haven't ate all day
the sky was blue, now it turned gray
smells like fresh paint
like nail polish, gas or pepper spray
glowing and flowing through my room
i'm sitting here breathing in this fume
thinking of you i'm dying here today
Lie
then why i feel so traped
running around busy
trying to forget
can't think no more, i'd rather sleep
can't think no more, i'd rather drink
my road is getting really steep
my ship began to sink
it seems much easier to hide
in depths of careless worlds
then there is always suicide
and joining of all other timid souls
New affair
With your emotions
Making me think
Its wrong to be lonesome
But then I know anyway
Its either you're my prey
Or I'm your prey
Waiting for the ending
Minute after minute
Day after day
Stressing over little things
Though overlooking the big picture
You're changing me
My escapade
Parade of shoes
And new emotions.
Oh love
I won't be able to replace
My heart beats, your heart beats,
Her heart beats
Killing love bits by bits
Stealing the promise that we had
Stealing the happiness from her bed
Making me cry, making you cry,
Making her cry
Love is a lie.
Waiting
I wanted you to be the one
The hidden knowledge that you're not
Made dark clouds come over my sun
Though still I hoped and waited
Till I see you and feel you again
Knowing thatno promises were made
I found out that ingorance is an agonizing pain
My hidden knoledge never lies
Trying to love someone below me didn't work
When one is acting like a jerk, one gets a jerk
Follows like that a lesson after lesson
Still pains me every time to live it through
Breaks in between to be myself are vicious
But then agian I'm looking for the one and only YOU